Playing doctor

Friday, September 13, 2013
from:  Landshark
to:      Sassy 
date:  Fri, Sep 13, 2013 at 8:40 AM
subject:  Re: Steamy PG
Hey you –
Sorry – yesterday was insane.
Ended up not having dinner out last night – and it was raining too hard for me to pick up the phone on the way home.
TGIF.  Though today is a non-stop day with calls.  I booked myself a 4-5PM meeting so no one would bother me at the end of the day. We live on conf calls – since we are scattered around the globe. 
 If one of the calls let’s me daydream for a bit – I’ll come up with a creative photo to send you.
Mmmm … I think I would very much like feeding you chocolates in bed.  My fingers would roam all over your body … feeling your nipples harden and your pussy get wet.  And the kissing … would be very passionate.  I do like to kiss.
Evan
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from:  Sassy
to:       Landshark 
date:  Fri, Sep 13, 2013 at 9:40 AM
subject:  Re: Steamy PG
Hiya Evan!
I woke up with a breast infection,  so I’m sitting waiting at the clinic! They poke at it, nod and give me antibiotics.   Bleh.  This is the 4th one since I finished radiation 2 yrs ago.   I was just thinking yesterday that I’d made it a year without one and maybe I’m over them.  Bleh. Once I get pills, it will heal quickly. Thank goodness!   Wish you could kiss it and make it better!
Hubby and I tried a new sports bar in Inman Square called Hit Wicket – it has a cricket theme!  The food is a fushion of street foods from countries that play cricket, so we had Indian pappadams and spicy peanuts, Pakistan fish pastries, Aussie lamb pie, and a British chocolate strawberry cake!  Yum.  I saw cricket and Aussie football on TV for the first time.  Very interesting!
Chat was fun last night.   Another blogger was there and we talked about Riff Dawg and FFFing.  It’s great to have someone who knows the joys and perils to talk to.
Been waiting 30 min when they said 15…grrr.  ah well, gave me time to write you!  Have a great day!
-S
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from:  Landshark
to:      Sassy
date:  Fri, Sep 13, 2013 at 12:10 PM
subject:  Re: Steamy PG
I hope you feel better quickly.  Consider this an IOU for a kiss to make it feel better!
I just read about Hit Wicket in the Globe a couple of weeks ago.  I work with a lot of those crazy foreigners who are nuts about Cricket.  Having played it once – I am not sure it really qualifies as a sport!
Riff Dawg.  There’s a name from the past.  I had an account awhile ago on Ashley Madison – and never had any success there – despite the ‘tips and tricks’ he would post.  There are a couple of those blogs that have disappeared over the past couple of years that I do miss.
Am on a long call right now – and am just ready to yell.  The sales guy is not much help on this one.  I just need to make it through today.  Our business always ramps up at the end of each quarter – so things are going to be crazy for the next 2 weeks.
Hope the appointment went smoothly.  Hope to get a chance to play doctor with you someday soon.
Evan

Happy Hump Day

Wednesday, August 21, 2013
From: The Lawyer
To: Sassy
Sent: Aug 21, 2013 11:29 AM 
Subject: Re: have to run 
I’m back in your inbox…. sounds a little salacious, but I’m good with that!! 😉
Have been daydreaming… very pleasant thoughts!!
Sounds like we may have to exercise patience–our schedules aren’t meshing.. I’m tied up this week, and then Tues- Friday next week… maybe shoot for post-Labor day?  sounds far away… but well worth it!
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From: Sassy 
To: The Lawyer
Sent: Wednesday, August 21, 2013 3:01 PM
Subject: Happy Hump Day
You make me smile.  Know that even four or five words from you make my day, lead me to think about what we have done and what we might do.  I’m so glad I can inspire daydreams for you!  If you give me hints about them I will endeavor to make them come true!  
We can keep going to lunch once a year if you like.  ðŸ™‚  But more will be better.  I have thoughts all the way from 2 hours in a bed in Somerville on up to a day trip to Rhode Island.  Mmm…. 
Have you seen the GEICO commercial with the camel?  It’s good for a work-safe laugh.
-S 
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From: The Lawyer
To: Sassy
Sent: Aug 21, 2013 4:23 PM
Subject: Re: Happy Hump Day
mmm…. hints…   I like your imagination, I like your inquisitiveness….   hints aren’t necessary… it will be fun having things just play out….
mmn… both somerville and Rhode island sound delightful… hope to make one or the other happen, soon!

Pastime

Wednesday, August 7, 2013
7:42am Phil
Sorry kiddo. I’d like to offer something witty but I got nothing. Hope today is better
8:37am
Thanks kid.  That helped!  Have a wicked good Wednesday!
10:02am
Here’s the comic of my day.

Pastime
http://xkcd.com/1222/

How about never?

So…. maybe you’re wondering what happened next, after Mr Hyatt and I had a lovely afternoon at the hotel?  Did he keep writing?  Did I see him again?

The man did almost everything right – beautiful hotel room, wild romp, said nice things about my body, asked to see me again before I left the room, texted me right away and I felt… nothing.  I don’t care.  I don’t want to see him again.  I know, this is the sort of thing that is super-depressing for men to hear.  But he was a perfect example of “NO CHEMISTRY!” Ugh.

I sat in my car in the hotel garage that day and felt…. nothing.  I hoped the memories would get better over time, but… they got worse.

I told myself not to judge based on a first meet, then analyzed it from every angle, told myself I should not close the door, that there would be days when I would change my mind and need some man’s hands on me and it could easily be him.  How could I turn away someone who was doing the right things?   I won’t bore you with the long list I made of reasons not to carry on but the bottom line was… I didn’t want to!  Imagine that… me not doing something a man wants!

Cartoon from The New Yorker magazine

Of course, he wrote while he was away.  A lot. Even called me.  But I still felt… nothing.  I tried to be nice, sent him classy p0rn videos most men have liked and videos I like.  He told of pining for me, sent me the oddest videos of huge sexy women (bigger than me!) being adored in various odd ways by thin ugly men – so strange I can’t even post them.

Then when he got home, he didn’t get in touch for three weeks and that was only to say that he was leaving again for six weeks!  Why does he only write when he’s thousands of miles away?  I know, I know… busy, busy… but… don’t say “I can’t wait to get home and hold you in my arms” and then… not write when you get home.  But I was relieved.

Things happened in my life and I didn’t have much time for awhile and realized I didn’t want to make time for him ever.   I explained about my new challenges, told him I was not interested anymore but he never seemed to get it.  He’d email with the subject line “Let’s get it on.”  That’s it… no message.  Nope.  Don’t want to.   I kept answering for awhile, being polite.  I don’t want him ticked at me.  A man can do bad things when he’s ticked.

Then I stopped writing.  That’s really not like me, but I couldn’t think of any other way to say, “no thanks.”   He kept writing.  He is still writing.  Every now and then.  Latest was, “Still got hots for you.  You got anything for me?”  Sigh.

I don’t want to think about him anymore.  And I don’t want to write about him here.  It feels write to be silent rather than write about him.  So you won’t be treated to the continuing saga of Mr Hyatt.

Figures… I hate silence and the guy who keeps writing is someone I don’t want to hear from!

Penguin slips

Thursday, January 24, 2013
7:14am
Conference Day!  Off to work early to herd cats!
7:49am Phil
Well enjoy!  Pot Roast came out great!  I love to cook which is a good thing or there would never be a meal in that house. I like to plan the meal out and buy the ingredients and then play with the recipe and see how it comes out.  The roast melted in your mouth, it was fabulous.  I also clean, wash dishes and do laundry. 
Tonight is dinner at the Bigwig’s but I am thinking about a pasta dish for Friday night, just not sure what yet.  Maybe paella, I have all the stuff. will see, enjoy the conference, I am herding Bigwigs around all day.
5:18 pm

I don’t know why this strikes me as so funny, but it DOES!  
Check out this 11-second video:
A group of penguins are filmed walking across the ice in the South Pole. Watch how, as one of the penguins loses his balance, the rest of the group react in a remarkably funny way.

11:59pm
Hope you had fun with the bigwigs.  Did they feed you well?  
I survived the conference… I was a model of delegation!
Sleep well, sweet man.

Petting chart

Monday, January 21, 2013
8:47am
Good morning!  Happy MLK Day!

7:29 pm
Interesting new dessert tonight

 Cannoli chip mini dessert @ The 99, Somerville
10:34 pm 
Is this true? 

10:49pm Phil
Home safe and sound
10:49pm
Hooray!  Thanks for letting me know.  Mwah!
11:25pm Phil
[photo of him at home with a dog on his shoulder]
[photo of his hand with something white and sticky between the fingers]
Yeah that’s what it looks like
[photo of his cock from above]
[photo of his cock in his hand]

Sheep

Tuesday, December 4, 2012
7:51am Phil  
Good morning, another bad night, lay awake most of the night, still not hungry. 
I have come to the realization that I fucked this up. I let her slip away and I have no one to blame but me. I’m stuck in a marriage with my room mate and buddy. We have fun together. We get along, we share a home but we almost never touch. I have been searching for something my entire life. I guess I still am. I want that soul searing-connection,  that absolute need to touch, to be near another person. I had it and I let it slip away and now she is someone elses and I have only me to blame. I am heartbroken, sad, filled with sorrow and I don’t have a clue what to do, how to proceed, how to carry on. I just don’t know how to move on. I’ve never felt this, ever. I am sorry to dump my crap on you. 
How are you Sass? How is the foot doing? Sounds like project was fun last night. I hope the work issues get resolved. I know how badly it sucks to be in that environment. Hope your day in good.
8:13am 
Good morning! Dashing to work. Thank you for letting me know how you’re doing. It helps me feel useful! Foot hurts, job sucks, need a hug so bad and can’t get it, …but project helps! Another meeting  tonight!
    
8:23am Phil

I know how you feel about the hug. I get hugs from the dogs, not the same. I need to hold on to someone and cry till I have no more tears in me to cry. I need to get it all out. Keeping it inside is just bad. 

I hear you. The foot would drive me bananas. I am down 14 pounds since Thanksgiving. Physically feeling spunky again, very close to passing a low for me and that’s good. The reason for the loss sucks. Some how depriving myself makes it easier. No booze, no food, no sleep, really does make it easier
1:14pm 
Hey, kid. Hobbling off to find lunch. Tell me you have done the same? You are scaring me with this deprivation! Take care of yourself… need your strength and best brain!
         
1:14pm Phil  
 Hey girlie! How’s ur day?
1:23pm Phil  
I had tiny sammich. Still not hungry. Not much interested in anything. trying to stay submersed in work, work out as much as I can. Staying far away from any alcohol. I don’t need anything to depress me more than I already am. I eat enough to survive. Nothing tastes good or looks good so I pick the most nutritious thing I see and eat enough to sustain. I drink water and coffee, not much taste to either of those so not an issue. I just don’t want anything. 
Got the Bigwigs Christmas party on Friday, Army/Navy game party on Saturday, party that evening and then another Bigwigs annual Christmas party on Sunday. Got to smile and shake hands and be social and gracious. I can make believe with the best of them. Spoke to 1400 co-workers yesterday and getting ready to do that again. Have to stand up there and laugh and joke too. I really just want to be alone with my thoughts for a week and cry till I can’t any more. 
Each day is better. Have to guard my attitude though. I’m on a “love is bullshit” slant at the moment. Got me no where. The people who are in relationships for convenience or finance are better off. No broken hearts there. I know someday I will look back and laugh at the memories because we made some great ones and I’ll be so glad for the time we did have. But fuck it hurts right now.
5:09pm
Hey, kid. Heading off to the project meeting! Hope it perks me up. Work nearly slay me today. Let’s see if I can make some other people happy! Mwah!
5:09pm Phil
 Have fun!
5:10pm
🙂 
            
5:24pm Phil
Can you see a photo on my timeline I just posted?
5:46pm 
Nope.
5:50pm Phil
Cool, FB security works! Love your voicemail
5:54pm
Oh?
Adore my sultry voice, eh?
6:00pm Phil
 Very sexy
7:51pm
Oops… You got my mischief voicemail…hmmm…I better change my settings! Don’t want you mixed in with my man harem! You’re special…betterrrrr.
7:53pm Phil
Ha ha ha, I love it! I was not sure I had the right number but then I was like damn!
8:03pm Gotta keep my secrets from the silly men. Fake name, fake number. Awww….you’ve heard my sexy voice… You know that girl. Like no one else.
First meeting done…on to second group!
8:38pm
Wait…what photo are you hiding? Are you being bad?
         
10:14pm Phil 
Ahhhhhhhh. Excellent. Keep working to make lives better. 
Not being bad, old pic, just messing with settings
10:16pm 
Home now… such a great evening! You hanging in, kid?
         
10:21pm Phil 

Better. Still no appetite. Hope I sleep tonight.exhausted. I’m toasted.
Glad u had a good evening

10:25pm
 I can send you a few sheep to count if you like.
      
10:25pm Phil
 Cool!
10:28pm
Here you go.
10:29pm Phil   
Lol