January 16. 2017 Monday
From: TimmyTim
To: Sassy
Date: Mon, Jan 16 at 1:41 PM
Subject: A Short Novella Just For You!
Sassy,
Thank you for that great email! Your honesty and candor is very refreshing and much appreciated. Don’t worry about writing a novella, I tend to do that myself.
Before I answer your questions, I do have one for you. Again if this is too personal please say so. Did your husband stop intimacy when you had cancer? I have had friends where that was the case.
Now to answer your questions. Yes, my wife would be upset if she found out. We are still great friends. She went through the change relatively young and has no desire or libido. I did not enter into this decision lightly. I know it might be pretzel logic, but having a special friend in the same situation might help both of us stay in otherwise strong relationships. Oscar Wilde once wrote, (yes, love to quote to justify our actions to a higher authority), that marriage has so many stresses that it sometimes takes a third to make it all work. How about your husband? Would he be upset?
I joined AM just before the hacking scandal. (My luck!) But I did not use my credit card, keep a few layers of cover and only really communicate on my Yahoo account. My longest affair was not through AM but work. A long story, but it ran its course and we are still friends. Like you, I have met a few wonderful people, many awful people and a lot of nice people that did not work out for some reason or other. I am really looking for that special person to share the special times. Someone to talk to, confide in and share magical moments. I have to admit that you are a very special person, and I enjoy sharing with you through these emails.
You had written that you learned a lot about yourself and your sexuality through your old high school “sweetheart”. Was there any one thing that aided you in your epiphany? I truly believe we accept only the love we feel we deserve! This opens so many to unfulfilling relationships. I bet you would not describe yourself as “frumpy” now. So you learned about sex toys, porn etc. would you like to expand on this topic, or is it too early. I really want to know more about you.
As for Riff Dawg’s advice, I’m just trying to be honest and up front. Since social media is not my forte, I’m just glad I haven’t scared you away.
Well, I have written a novella! I will be free tomorrow night to chat on Yahoo around 10:00 PM if that works for you.
I love writing to you and reading your thoughts! Hope to hear from you soon!
Take care (hugs with groping and kissing on the nape of the neck),
Tim
Sent from Yahoo Mail for iPhone
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From: Sassy
To: TimmyTim
Date: Mon, Jan 16 at 4:12 PM
Re: A Short Novella Just For You!
Ah Tim… Tim, Tim, Tim… your messages are such a joy! Gotta adore this stage where we are still so perfect. 😉
You can ask any questions you want. I don’t judge. I may not answer, but don’t worry about filtering or offending me. The only people who offend me are Conservative Republicans and Yankees fans, but I still manage to find something good in them!
Hubby stopped touching me way before cancer. He did decide he was polyamorous and wanted to start dating while I was in chemo. And posted a profile on OK Cupid where our friends could see it! I asked him to be more discreet or stop until I was better. He didn’t. I asked him to ask his therapist if my request was unreasonable. The therapist sided with me. Heh. He supports my adventures. I don’t tell him much, but he is happy for me. He does his thing, has a gf he sees every Tuesday. and I do mine.
I completely agree that stepping out can make it easier to stay. I am puzzled by wives who don’t want a man sexually but don’t want him to seek release otherwise. I know it’s radical, but many of our friends are poly, where everyone knows and works together to make each other happy, and it seems so much more civilized!
Oscar Wilde? You are quoting that man to me before you know that I adore theater? and I saw “The Importance of Being Earnest” recently? Oh my… I am in deep trouble. Of the very best kind. Maybe you can go see a show with me.
So glad you were careful about info you put on AM. Wow… I could have written these sentences…”I am really looking for that special person to share the special times. Someone to talk to, confide in and share magical moments. I have to admit that you are a very special person, and I enjoy sharing with you through these emails.” Kinda freaky. Could we possibly be good together in bed too?
I am a special person… how perceptive you are! 😉 I probably shouldn’t say this so early but I do like you.
My epiphany started when Old Flame focused on me… my pleasure, expected me to participate and be satisfied. I’d always been with men who did their thing and mostly used me for their pleasure only. Now I realize I can do stuff and he can do stuff and we can do stuff and it is so much better! I watched a lot of videos to learn things like… a bj is not just sucking. Heh. I had never seen a toy, didn’t understand what they were for. You want me to put that where? And do what? But I’ve experimented on myself and men, found many ways they can enhance and provide variety.
Another major factor was that I found a chat room for cheaters, which I thought would be totally bizarre but is really regular folks making the best of their situation and reaching out for help and offering help. Sadly it is gone now too, but it was a huge resource for me. They talked me into signing up for AM, taught me how to avoid the bad men, how to buy and use toys, where to find fun porn to share to make a man smile when he’s miles away. If you want to see some of my favorites, let me know.
I’d be glad to expand on whatever you like. Tough to know what to say… feel free to ask questions.
I’d be glad to chat Tuesday night. I’ll be on at 10 pm! Mwah! (that’s me blowing you a kiss!)
Be careful… if you kiss the back of my neck, there may be amazing sex after that! I may have to whisper naughty suggestions in your ear!
-S
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From: TimmyTim
To: Sassy
Date: Jan 16 at 8:05 PM
Subject: One Last Email!
Sassy,
So glad I will be able to send off one more email tonight, and maybe, god willing, receive one before bed!
Yes, we seem to be in that perfect stage and the next is that religious stage where you start shouting, “Oh my god, ohh my goooohd, I’m going to….”
I dare not dwell on it too much (hubris brought down many a hero), but I think we will be good together in bed. I think we both agree that the brain is the sexiest organ, and it all starts there.
I am very happy that some of my thoughts (rambling?) has struck a positive chord with you. I am a hopeless romantic (with Oscar Wilde as my muse, go figure) and went out on a limb and spoke from the heart. I thought it better to know now if we were on the same page than find out the opposite later. I now feel special knowing that you are starting to like me! Thank you!
I had read about polyamory, and tried to float the idea by my wife. Did not go well since she thought it was just “new age swinging”. I don’t think she saw where I was coming from, or I just did a bad job of explaining. Since everyone has to be on board, it was not an option for me. I couldn’t start a relationship based on a lie, or at least not have the basic level of trust. Are you poly? It does seem a most civilized alternative.
Your experience with your past boyfriend seems to be a watershed moment for you! Sex is sex, but intimacy is so much deeper and more rewarding for everyone. I am a giver, and with the right person, the more you give without expecting, the more intense and beautiful the whole encounter becomes. I would love to know what movies you would suggest? Do you have a favorite toy? Or should we leave that for tomorrow’s chat in case there are some awkward pauses?
But one bone of contention, how can you find something good with conservative republicans! I know politics is a flash point these days, but I fear for our future! Yankee fans are just silly followers, I ignore them!
I just enjoy writing to you so much, I could go on and on! (Didn’t even respond to the theatre, which I love) But I’m afraid I’ll use up all my good material before our chat! So hugs with groping and a kiss at the base of the neck, I want to hear those whispered suggestions! Not sure what sound I make blowing kisses, but be aware they are out there!
Take care,
Tim
Sent from Yahoo Mail for iPhone
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From: Sassy
To: TimmyTim
Date: Mon, Jan 16 at 10:39 PM
Re: One Last Email!
Hiya Tim!
So lovely to come home to your email! I will send you TWO emails tonight. 🙂 I’m replying here, and then I will send you a little snippet of erotica I wrote. I’ve never crossed the line at work, but I have thought about it!
Chemistry is a fickle thing. I do have very good feelings about us having it. Please please please!
I don’t consider myself poly. I am a one-man woman. But it gets tricky when that man won’t help me physically. I definitely see the “different people can fill different needs in your life” tenet. Not sure where that leaves me… a work-in-progress I suppose.
I will dig up some fun sexy videos or tumblrs. Do tell me if you like them or not, so I can fine-tune my recommendations. Do you have a favorite part of a woman’s body? That can be a helpful focus. I am a sucker for shoulders and eyes. I have two favorite toys right now. One is a big silver bullet that vibrates, and the other is a Lelo Gigi 2 vibrator that buzzes or pulses at 8 different speeds! Whee! When I first started ordering I thought I was a g-spot gal, so I ordered big internal toys like the 9-inch stunt cock. They did nothing for me. So I switched to the smaller clit stimulators. BOOM!
It has surprised me what is important and what is not in the AM men I meet. Often, it is very different from people I know “in real life.” Both in terms of what I need to know or not, and how I can tolerate things that I can not deal with otherwise. But I have much better luck if I don’t have to put a bag over their politics.
Have you ever read or seen a production of Thornton Wilder’s “Our Town?” If memory serves, there is a discussion by a woman talking to her daughter about what it was like when she first got married. She said she had been so afraid they would run out of things to talk about, but that never happened! It seems like we will only have good silences, and plenty to discuss when we like. The best sex I’ve had felt like a long conversation with some happy pauses for touching and more. I have the feeling you have endless good material!
Here are three more questions (you may have noticed I am curious as well as sassy):
1. Have you always lived in MA?
I was raised in upstate NY, moved to MA for college and then stayed.
2. Do you have pets?
Hubby has two cats who let me pet them now and then.
3. Do you have favorite music?
I’m into folk music like Christine Lavin, Cheryl Wheeler or David Wilcox. Or a cappella groups like the House Jacks or various college groups. And I adore Broadway tunes. I also like classical, some country music, pop, oldies… things I can sing along with!
I’ll go dig up the erotica now. Hope it will give you sweet sexy dreams!
-Sassy
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From: Sassy
To: TimmyTim
Date: Jan 16 at 10:43 PM
Subject: The View
Just as I was finishing my last meeting of the day yesterday,
gathering my papers off the marble table in the conference
room on the 36th floor, the sound of sirens wafted up from
the expressway below. Everyone else had left the room, so
I took a minute to lean over the marble counter and stare
down at the roadway. There was a horrible wreck of mangled
metal and shattered glass, several cars and a tractor trailer
twisted together. The traffic was stopped behind the mess,
and the cars on the other side barely moved, rubbernecking.
Suddenly, I heard the door close. I straightened up, but before I
could turn, I felt your arm around my waist, and felt the heat of you
on my back through my dress. You were already hard, pressed
tightly against my ass. I started to speak, but you put a finger
on my lips and teased a corner. I licked your thumb, and you moved
your hand down to unbutton my dress. Just enough to slip
your hand inside and tease a hard nipple. I moaned and let my head
fall back against your shoulder. You bit my neck and ran your
tongue across my skin.
You slipped your hand under my skirt and inside my underwear,
teasing my most sensitive spot. You pressed a finger inside,
unsurprised at the moisture gathered there. I was startled
as you lowered my underwear. I felt like my knees would
buckle, but you tightened your grip and spread my legs to
balance me against the counter. I panicked when I heard
the rasping sound of your zipper, but before I could form the
words in my mind to stop you, I felt you hot and hard against
my skin, and a low moan was all that escaped my lips. You
shoved it inside me, and your breathing grew ragged as you
watched yourself slide in and out. You kneaded the flesh of
my hips as you moved, then reached around me to rub the top
of my slit in time with your strokes. I was trying to be
quiet, but could not hold in all the gasps of pleasure as
you thrust deeper and deeper inside me, your balls slapping
against me. You felt the trembling start inside me, and
the clenching around you. You felt the pulsing, the searing
heat and suddenly lost control, pounding me into the wood
and stone, spurting up inside me over and over.
The only sound was our uneven breathing and the whirring
air conditioning. You pressed your cheek to my back and
whispered, “What a view…”