Monthly Archives: April 2013

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Officers Threesome

April 24 (continued) 

9:19 pm Phil

My face really looks thinner?
9:20 pm
Yes indeed! Compare photos… sticks right out! I probably shouldn’t admit this, but I’d like to be in between you and that other guy! An officers sandwich…
You are both HOT!
And I nearly swooned this morning when you were talking about your tight butt!
10:00 pm
Might have to show me that…
10:33 pm Phil
LOL. Sandwich?
10:34 pm
Ahem… yes.
10:34 pm Phil
That would be fun
10:35 pm
Yeah, right.
You can tell him your girlfriend wants to do a threesome with him! 
LOL
10:36 pm Phil
Ever done that?
10:39 pm
A sandwich? Sure.
You know that story… MEXICO baby…
10:42 pm Phil
Oh yeah. That was hot as hell
10:42 pm
I dunno… I think you are plenty of man for me. 
But for variety?  Who knows?!  Hee hee
10:43pm Phil
Ha ha
10:43pm
You want my top half or the bottom?
the back side or the front?
10:45pm Phil
Back side, ass
10:46pm
oooh…. baby… what would you do? 
Spank me?
I promise I’ve been bad!
10:47pm Phil
Lube it up with my tongue, then slip a finger in, rubbing my cock over that tight hole
Happy to spank away
10:48pm
Makes me think of that longer video… I think we watched it… where the guy was spanking and fucking her ass on and on?
10:49pm Phil
Oh that was so hot
Amazing if the girls really into it
10:51pm
I’ve been reading a lot about it
Current blog I am reading, written by a woman who adores it
describes how to, then mentions it whenever she tells about her lover… wicked hot
10:53pm Phil
When she is moaning and thrashing about with your tongue in her ass, begging you to fuck her, damn
10:53pm
when she is pushes back against you… taking you in and out? 
10:54pm Phil
Amazing, so tight, so hot, cum like a fire hose
10:55pm
would love to feel it in there… and then dripping out… yum…
10:56pm Phil
It’s fucking hot as hell
10:57pm
oh yes… would love to have you do it on the desk in the hotel with a mirror… so I could see your face….
10:59pm Phil
Lots of lube and gotta start slow
10:59pm
Yes.
11:00pm Phil
Not something you rush
11:00pm
That’s what they say

11:01pm Phil
Slow and easy and it’s amazing
11:01pm
Damn… I can feel your hands on me… you pressing that stone stick behind me.
11:02pm Phil
Ha ha, it’s amazing sex if done right
11:02pm
I have the feeling we’d figure it out…
11:03pm Phil
No doubt
11:03pm
Maybe some morning you could wake me up that way…
Grab the lube… do yourself up, do me up then… mmmm.
11:04pm Phil
Wow
11:06pm
Can you see it? 
11:08pm Phil
I can feel it.
To bed for me. Night girl
11:10pm
Night kid.

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Let me be more

Tuesday, April 24
6:20 am
Good morning! 47 some clouds, pretty rays of sun poking thru. Please let today be better. Hope you have a good day!
7:08 am Phil
Good morning, hope it’s better too. Barely ate yesterday. Did not sleep last night. Lot of stuff bouncing around in my head and heart. No one to talk to about it. All stays bottled up inside and it’s consuming me. You apparently have some of the stuff going on, different but similar.
7:48 am Phil
Gotta buck up and stop. You doing ok kiddo? I know you had a rough day yesterday. What’s up with work? What’s up with the body thing? Your husband, I understand that part.
8:08 am
Hey, there. First – you can always talk to me. I am here for you. Let it out. Really. I want to hear it. I want to help.
Second – thank you for asking… work sucked because I have an evil assistant who has been going to my boss lying about me. And he believed her. and he wants to implement a task tracking software and interfere with hiring… all of which make it not a place I want to be anymore. But I will suck it up and go back in there.
8:10 am Phil
I don’t think I can talk about this. Just need to deal with it. Sorry to hear about work. It sucks when you don’t want to be some place.
I am rapidly approaching the 30lb down mark. Working out harder, eating smarter although sometimes not at all. That’s not smarter but sometimes just not interested.
8:17 am
I am so proud of your weight loss! That must feel so good!
You not wanting to talk makes me wonder if the problem is me… if it is, be honest. If not, some broad “about work” or about whatever would help calm my mind.
8:22 am  Phil
It does. Feel so much better, look better too. Have to eat better though. Can’t just skip. Have to get this elephant off my shoulders too. It is slowly eating me up.

It’s not you Sass. Why would it be you? Sometimes things just happen and you react badly and they change your life forever. It’s devastating and you deal with it and move along. It’s one of those type things and I am having a horrible time shaking it off. I just get worse.

8:29 am
Thank you for saying. It might be me because I’ve asked you to change your life and include me. I desperately miss you… and I am in limbo waiting to see if you will help me get away from all this. But it’s not fair to lay it on you. But if I knew I was leaving here, it would make it easier. But I know you can’t know that yet. NO pressure, just explaining where my head is. I hope I help a little. We’ll get through this… hugs.
If I visited a friend in Chicago, could you see me?
8:59 am Phil
That would be very hard and at this point I am of no use to anyone. I’m getting better. I am going to get my little place near the beach, buy my car, turn the shed or garage into a man cave with bar and dart boards, put in a couple kegs, a kicking music system. I am going to grow a garden, my yard will be a work of art, house immaculate, dark leather and wood, couple dogs running around. My dreams are simple. I’m not even sure I want to be with anyone. I broke a heart and had mine broken and I’m not sure I ever want to go back there. I have no clue what I am doing Sass or where I am going. There’s a light out there somewhere. I can stay and be very comfortable. I have paid down a mountain of debt and will free in the near future of that prison. Hard, hard, hard
1:34 am
Dear dear man… I know this is very hard, as I am struggling with many of the same issues. I’ll be your friend no matter you decide.
2:40 pm
But please think about letting me be more to you. All I want is to make you happy. Think of the amazing chemistry we have, the comfort, the partnership… I know you’ve never had it and can’t imagine what it would be like, but think of our time together as a model – us having fun, me taking care of myself while you do your own thing, sharing the costs, staying out of your way except when you want me?

2:41 pm
You deserve to be happy and have someone who will let you live your life, be there to rub your back, hug you when things are bad and laugh with you when things are great. Believe that I will be different… not a burden but a joy in your life! I believe that you can make me happy… you already do in so many ways!
Philip, please let me care for you, feed your pets when you’re away, help you with parties, plan great trips you want, love you and your family and friends. I am someone who knows how to make people happy around her! Please give us a chance! I can see it so clearly! You are smiling and relaxed and thank God every day that I am there.
2:44 pm
I promise to be nice to you. Every day. I will not to collect anything, or decorate, or argue about money, or complain about your family. I will be me. And let you be you. I will learn what makes you happy and try my best to do it.
You remind me of the guy who prays for rescue in the flood, and turns down the boat and the helicopter and the bridge. God finally says, “I sent you help! Why didn’t you take it?” I believe God led you to me. Am I nuts? Sorry to go on, but this is very important to me. If you have concerns, ask questions! This can be fun! And get us both to a much better life.
3:13 pm
In other news, you look very handsome in the latest photos! I can definitely see your new skinny face! I adore your smile…
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Needs x3

Monday, April 23
7:56 am
Good morning! 61 nasty rain/wind. Seems appropriate for Monday. Bleh.
Busy week for you? Hope it rolls!
8:43 am Phil
Good morning. Thank God for Monday. I can become the Officer and bury myself in work. I do this easily, no need to concern myself with other issues till about 7:00 pm. The weekends really suck.

Nice bright sunny day here today. Cool but very pretty. In the 50s now. My butt no longer has any fat on it. Just firm and muscular. Upper body looks different, shirts all fit, pants getting looser. Had a banana for breakfast and coffee of course. Just not hungry. I know I need to eat so I do but no real desire to. Weird. Ah well, enjoy your Monday!

5:37 pm
I need a hug.
5:46 pm Phil
Me too
5:48 pm
{{{HUG}}}
I would also like a new body. A new job. And a new husband. Ugh Ugh Ugh. Just shoot me now. *crying*
5:54 pm Phil
Ah…………. I know the feeling.
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Creating a word for it

Dear Readers,

Every now and then, I read something that makes me say, “Oh yes… he knows.  He’s felt what I feel!”  Or I hear a song and feel my emotions being set forth for the entire world to understand.  You can see many of them under the “music” on my blog.  Sometimes I need to share them with Philip.  Other times I need to share them with you.

Today the writer Jonathan Carroll’s Facebook page led me to a tumblr written by John Koenig called “The Dictionary of Obscure Sorrows” which sounds rather ominous, but is actually a thoughtful compendium of definitions of emotions.  It helps to have a name for each one.

http://www.dictionaryofobscuresorrows.com

I read and read… nodding my head at almost every entry.  I encourage you to do the same.  It helps me to synthesize the muddle of emotions tumbling around in my head, and to know that someone else understands and is telling the world.  Here are two to get you started:

n. the realization that the plot of your life doesn’t make sense to you anymore—that although you thought you were following the arc of the story, you keep finding yourself immersed in passages you don’t understand, that don’t even seem to belong in the same genre—which requires you to go back and reread the chapters that you had originally skimmed through to get to the good parts, only to learn that all along you were supposed to choose your own adventure.
n. frustration with how long it takes to get to know someone—spending the first few weeks chatting in their psychological entryway, with each subsequent conversation like entering a different anteroom, each a little closer to the center of the house—wishing instead that you could start there and work your way out, exchanging your deepest secrets first, before easing into casualness, until you’ve built up enough mystery over the years to ask them where they’re from, and what they do for a living.

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100 Marriage Tips

Sunday, April 22
9:09am
Good morning!  51 misty.  Good weather to catch up on chores indoors!  Hope you have a special Sunday.
11:57am Phil
Cold here but sunny. Fixing electronics.  arggggfgggg
1:59pm
Hiya handsome.  You didn’t tell me you can fix electronics!  That is very hot.  
2:00pm Phil
I can do all kinds of stuff. Got handy over the years
2:00pm
What were you fixing today?
2:01pm Phil
Printers. Specifically, the wireless connection. Go it done, watching a bit of the race and then gonna take a bike ride
2:01pm
nice.  I do adore handy men. 
2:07pm
Especially if he’d use his hands on me.
2:13pm Phil
Ha,ha, guess I’m ok with that too. My history with women is not all that great though. Married out of high school, stupid thing to do. Fell in love years later and managed to fuck that up. Still hurts my heart. Met you after many years and am enjoying that but still have so many issues that weigh on my heart and soul. I push it all to the back and go on but sometimes it all crashes down and just crushes me. I tried to drink and eat it away. That does not work. ok today though. enjoyed my printer project, got a lap full of dogs and blessedly have the house to myself for a little while. going to head out and ride for an hour or so and excited about that.
2:17pm
I hear you.  I could write many of the same things.  Thank you for sharing them with me.  I so want to make you smile for real.
2:18pm Phil
she’s back.  Talk at you later. She’s going to the movies
7:23 pm Phil
I made dinner, grilled salmon, stir fried vegetables, salad. She slept on the couch. I so want more. I want someone to rub my neck, make dinner with me, listening to Foreigner on TV. I had that and walked away. I have everything and nothing.
8:08 pm
I hear you, kid.
8:15 pm Phil
I’m just so sad. Can’t shake it.
8:17 pm
Part of me wants to hug you, fuck you out of it. Another part wants to get you a vitamin. And a third part wants to say you are finally seeing the truth and ask you to consider making changes.
But it’s late on a Sunday, so I feel like I should try to make you laugh!
or nibble on your ear and whisper something dirty…
So I’m like a menu… you get to choose!
Did you get out on your bike ride?
8:27 pm Phil
nah, went to the gym and came back and made lazy ass dinner.
Thanks. Made me smile.
8:30 pm
Me?
Tell me what I did so I can do it again!!!
I wanna dance! Might have to put on Sexy Back and gyrate around the living room again
8:35 pm Phil
ha ha.
8:38 pm
Might have to start taking my clothes off…
Damn… I wanna dance with you… tease you… touch you… see that smile…
squeeze your ass!
I’ve been serious all day… can’t resist being a little silly!
A little sexy?
9:00 pm
There once was a fella named Phil, who was trying to change what he eats. It made him feel bad and even so sad, but his lady love was there to rub on his feet!
11:56 pm
Better days are coming. I can feel it. Hope you can sleep well, sweet man.
12:54 am
 “100 Tips for keeping the spark in a marriage“
wondering if we could do it. It feels possible. Does it look wacky or wonderful to you?

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Barking

Saturday, April 21
10:27am
Good morning! 61 overcast.  Off to dim sum w/ Sis and her husband.  Thinking of what I’d rather have in my mouth… Have a good day, my dear.
10:46am Phil
At the gym trying to adjust my attitude. Barked at my wife, women bitches about money non stop but refuses to get off her lazy ass and help. Today is one of those days I don’t even like her. Enjoy Dim Sum. Something else I enjoy but can’t eat.
10:53am
Oh my… I don’t condone barking in general, but good for you!  This is messed up, but I hope you’ll bark at me someday, if I deserve it.  Though I try not to…  Promise me… if you don’t feel better today, please eat more tomorrow.  Your physical health is not worth losing your mind.  or go see the medic and say WTF?  
11:18am
Can you relax today?  Go in your mind to good places… blast Jimmy Buffet?  Ping me – you can vent or ask me to distract you… whatever you need.  You’re not alone.
11:30am
Have you seen this?  Texts from your dog
http://textsfromdog.tumblr.com/
I don’t get them but maybe they’ll make you smile…
12:13pm Phil
I don’t bark often. Usually just take it inside and stew. The gym is a good release for me. I had a good egg white breakfast so I’m good.

Very good friend made what I think is going to turn out to be a bad call. Won’t listen to anyone and it hurts me to my core. I’m such a sensitive Sap. Maybe it will work out.

Going to try and unwind. I’m tight as a spring. I’m fine though. Thanks.

12:36pm
Had a good visit over dumplings.  They’re renovating their new house, getting ready to sell their old, off to buy furniture.  It’s tough listening to them indulge in fancy interior decor when I have to wait til I get paid to buy groceries.  Ah, well – they bought lunch!
1:22pm
Sitting outside while they clean my car -so nice out!  They told me to wait in their crappy little TV room?  No way.  It’s a luxury, but I’ve waited a month for Hubby to help me do it and I can’t stand it anymore. So leftovers tonight and a clean car!
6:53pm
Oh, how I wish you were here!  I am in the mood for some FUN!  You know the kind I mean… Hope you’re having a good time!

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Sharing p0rn

April 14, 2012 (continued) 

5:24pm

You hanging in there?  What a beach day I had!  Wowzers!  So wished you could be with me…
5:33pm Phil
I would have been no fun. Glad you had a good time though. Have to go party and I don’t want to be around anyone, let alone cracking jokes and livening up the party. Ah well.  Hope your evening is a good one.
5:34pm
Wow!  What a wreck you are!  Hugs!  with groping! 
5:38pm Phil
No shit. Work out did not help. Maybe a shower.
5:41pm
I wish I could wash your back…
8:57pm
Hiya kid… thinking of you.  Hoping party de-funked you.
11:10pm Phil
Better 
11:16pm
Phew.  Thanks for saying… was worrying.
11:41pm Phil
🙂
11:50pm
Did you have a scotch?
11:51pm Phil
I did 
11:51pm
Good.
11:53pm Phil
Uh huh, nice
11:53pm
I find it mesmerizing…
time for a 4 min porn video?
The Black Gift
[Facebook censored it.]

11:56pm Phil

Sure
11:58pm
Maybe this will work
http://tinyurl.com/7up2vz9
12:02am Phil
Now that girl can suck a cock.
Liked watching her rub her pussy too.
12:03am
yes.  his playfulness reminds me of you
and the way he moves
I wish I could hear them… that makes it way more sexy
12:06am Phil
On some you can
He’s just fucking that hot mouth
12:07am
Yes…. wish I could see his face
But mostly wish I could see yours… 
12:08am Phil
Oh yeah shoot it on her face.
She got off too
12:14am
Will you do that for me?
12:19am
I so want to feel it… see it…
12:20am Phil
Ha, ha love to
12:20am
🙂
12:22am Phil
Nice thought. Bed time. Still not right. Nite
12:22am
Sleep well
I hope tomorrow will be better
Hugs

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FFF Stolen

Here’s the Flash Fiction Friday challenge from Advizor54.  Pop over to his blog to see what he and others have written about this interesting photo:
Key Words – Stolen
Word Limit – 300
Extra Words – 10 words for everyone you personally invite to join FFF 
Extra Credit – Involve a Panda Bear


Why doesn’t he call?  I hate silence!  He texted about big changes then nothing for two days.  Argh!  I stared at the phone, willing it to ring.  It worked!  
“I have a surprise for you,” he said without preamble.  I was relieved to hear his beautiful voice.  
“I don’t like surprises.” 
“You’ll like this,” he insisted, chuckling.  He sounded very cheerful.  
“Tell me!” 
“I’m out of the house.  Forever.”  
“WHAT?  You left her??”  I couldn’t breathe.  Could my dreams be coming true? 
“I never thought you’d do it.”
“I told you I would…” he sighed. 
“You are a man of your word.  What next?” 
“I got keys to the East Elm place… the third one we saw.  My stuff is in the truck.  I’m headed there to unpack,” he explained. 
Stunned.  Men don’t leave their wives.  My man is different.  
“Wow.” 
“Pick you up?”
“Hmmm….yes.  When?”  I do not dither when he asks me out.
“Now.  I’m parked one block over.”  He’s careful not to risk the neighbors seeing us.
“Yes!  I’m putting on clothes.”
“Don’t wear underwear.”
“Oh… alright,” Naughty man.  
“We can bless the mattress from the cabin,” he growled. 
“Ooooh!  You have the best ideas,” I whispered. 
“I can’t wait to get my hands on you!”  He crowed. 
“YES!  No more stolen afternoons in a hotel!” 
He had done it!  We had talked about this for ages but it suddenly hit me.  Together.  Alone.  Wow.  After three years, we’d have a place that didn’t cost over $100 for a few hours.
“I want you on top.  Naked.  Fast,” he said matter-of-factly as if he was ordering a cheeseburger.   I half-expected him to say, “with extra ketchup and pickles!”  Hee!  My mind raced…him beneath me, rolling my hips back and forth… 
“It will be… my pleasure!”  

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Beach Day

Friday, April 20

6:17 am
Good morning! Beautiful sunrise, 51 to 75 today! No office, going w/ Hubby to hospital for heart CT @ 7 am. Have a fine Friday!
7:22 am Phil
Good morning. Wet and rainy here. Matches my mood so I guess it’s good. Good luck at the hospital. Glad the event went well.
7:29 am
Hey Philip! In the waiting room. Boring! Thank goodness for wifi!
7:30 pm Phil
Yeah, hear that.
7:33 pm
What is this mood stuff? Need me to spank you? Hug you? Fuck you? What?? Look east….I am here thinking about a naked man at a hotel door!
7:37am Phil
Just feeling sad this morning, realizing the weekend is coming up and I’m not excited. No appetite, eat cause I have to and just feeling puny and small. Hard to shake it too.  Thanks for the kind words and pleasant thoughts though.
7:56am
Hunh…that’s different.  I’m sorry, hope it passes soon.  Maybe you aren’t getting some nutrient or enough sun.  Or enough Sassy kisses… Hmmm.  I’ll send something to distract soon…
8:04am Phil
I do need to find a multi vitamin. Not eating much at all and probably not getting what my body needs. Certainly not getting enough kisses. I’ll be ok as the day wears on I hope. I rarely feel like this, almost never in fact. Gotta put on my game face. My work self has to have a big smile and be the energizer bunny even when he does not feel like it. Would rather be sitting on the beach, alone, with my thoughts, sorting and making sense of life. Ah well, time to put on the clown suit. Hope Hubby has good results. Enjoy your day kiddo!
8:24am
10 second loop – Watch on computer, it’s animated… ;D
8:27am Phil
Will look when I get home
8:40am
Cool.  I found it oddly mesmerizing. 
Home again.  Trying to get motivated to go to the beach…
10:37am
Let me know when you’re watching it and I will provide narration. ;-0  I love you, Philip.  Whether you’re up or puny or what… you make my heart go pitty-pat.  You also effect other parts of my body which I will not mention but you know what I mean. 
10:49am Phil
Thanks Sass. I’m just having a really hard day. Party tonight. Maybe that will cheer me up some. I am never like this. Always upbeat, always the happiest guy in the place, this is so weird for me.
10:58am
I hear you, Philip.  I do think it’s something diet-related.   Can you go work out?  Get yourself a treat?  Call me?   I know some good elephant jokes! 
11:59am
OFF TO GET LOBSTER!
12:30pm Phil
Enjoy!

Waves on Bass Rocks, Gloucester

Lobsta Land Restaurant, Gloucester

 View of the salt marsh from the Lobsta Land Restaurant

 Spring pansies at the entrance to Lobsta Land

 Classic clam chowder

 Lazy man LOBSTER casserole!

 Classic Caesar Salad

 Chocolate mousse

 Niles Beach

 Good Harbor Beach

 Good Harbor Beach

 Good Harbor Beach

 Olive Garden, Danvers (got take-out for dinner!)

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Thursday things

Thursday, April 19
4:24 pm
Hiya kid! Having a smooth Thursday? Working from home, though they’ve called me three times… ugh. Prepping for project event tonight. Wish you could see!
9:03 pm
Full house! Going very well.