Courage
Monthly Archives: January 2013
Big doings
Week 22
Wednesday, January 11
1:41pm
Hiya! Another quiet day here… trying to get ahead on next week’s conference. Hope you’re having a great Wednesday and ready for the bigwigs.
10:13pm Phil
Gonna snow tonight. Big Bigwig coming in. Big doings. Be glad when this one is done.
Sassy Answers: Top Posts of 2012
Hello Readers!
It’s time for a quick trip “behind the curtain” into the “backstage” of my blog.
It’s not often that I get an idea for a blog post from another blogger, as my life is rather dull compared to most, except for a few salacious Facebook messages. However, the amazing and talented Kat posted her Top Ten Posts of 2012. What a great idea!
So I popped over to the Blogger page that keeps track of hits by post. I am sharing it with you! Yes, yes… sex is THE THING. I was so pleased that a lot of folks have gone back to the beginning and read forward. My posts make ever so much more sense that way. I find it interesting that the tale of my first sexual experience takes first place, and that some of my favorites are on there, but some aren’t.
Hang on
Tuesday, January 10
8:55am
2:55pm
Hiya! Lovely 46 degrees. Busy day – staff meeting, prep for a big conference next week… hope your Tuesday is terrific!
5:33pm Phil
Fabulous day here too. In the 50s! Just stunning. Can’t wait for my trip! Be there Tuesday for half price sushi and 2 dollar beers. I love the place. Great spot to read a book, relax and enjoy some awesome food!
I will get to your last post when i have time. Been through so much the past three years. Not all good, not all bad. Saw my entire life unravel, everything I believed fall apart and then slowly tried to put all the pieces together again. My kids are healing. They were the unintended consequences. when I have time to really sit down, I’ll lay this out, what I think, have thought, have been through and how I got here.
Hope your day has been a good one. Looking forward to a scotch and a cigar by myself in the warmth. I am aching for some time to be by myself, with my thoughts, a good book, a great scotch and quiet. It will be tremendously rejuvenating and I’ll be learning to boot!
I will get to your last post when i have time. Been through so much the past three years. Not all good, not all bad. Saw my entire life unravel, everything I believed fall apart and then slowly tried to put all the pieces together again. My kids are healing. They were the unintended consequences. when I have time to really sit down, I’ll lay this out, what I think, have thought, have been through and how I got here.
Hope your day has been a good one. Looking forward to a scotch and a cigar by myself in the warmth. I am aching for some time to be by myself, with my thoughts, a good book, a great scotch and quiet. It will be tremendously rejuvenating and I’ll be learning to boot!
9:30pm
Yay for trips! I’m so relieved you can get away. I look forward to any history or insights you can share. Sorry if dredging it up sucks, but I could use your expert counsel. Quiet evening, enjoyed food delivered from a new Indian place. Reading a new sexy blog… amazing how many there are!
New paths
Monday, January 9
8:33am Phil
Had a relaxing weekend. Great football games yesterday. I have a busy week. Bigwig coming to visit. Always a stress filled event. Monday I am off on my trip. My back is sore this morning. Think it’s the way I slept. Had dogs all over me and never did get comfortable. Really stiff, hoping it works out as I move around. Looking forward to a chance to get away for a few days. I need a break from the princess. I get testy at times because I do everything. Did all the cooking yesterday, made stuffed jalapenos, carolina barbecue that came out nice, and fresh guacamole. I felt some one else could do the dishes. Not one word about the food, just bitching cause I did not also do the dishes. I have emptied and moved 30 or more boxes, cleared three rooms, all by myself. Drives me crazy. Every time I see the queen on her perch on the couch, I want to strangle her. No job, does not cook, does not clean, contributes nothing but bad attitude. Sorry, just pissy today, ready to go away for a few days. Only alone time I ever get and I cherish it when I get it. Hope you are having a good day. Sorry to burden you with my crap. Everyone has their share.
11:52am
Good morning! First off, a big hug. Ok, maybe a kiss, too. With some tongue.
Don’t ever hesitate to share burdens! I’m happy to help you carry them. What else can I do? Tell me. [At least you weren’t trying to drive w/ tears streaming down your face because your spouse refused to attend and then threatened to kill himself while you were racing out the door to a family event, so the entire family had to know my problems. *sigh Don’t know why it got to me yesterday. Maybe because he was better recently and this ended my hope… ah, well.] I read over old messages from you and that brightened my evening!
Finally – Focus on warmth, good food and time on your own coming soon! And fantasize about a wench who’ll wash dishes with you and then make good use of the kitchen cabinet to make you cum buckets inside her. Have a great Monday!
2:14pm Phil
Clearly, we all have our burdens to bear. Good to hear of others issues and be reminded that my little issues are exactly that. I just have real issues with lazy people. When you can’t say you accomplished anything other than get out of bed, do laundry and feed the dogs, I just do a slow burn. I have a hard time sitting still for an hour let alone wasting weeks and weeks. Ah well. Hope your day is going well.
3:58pm
Hey, there. How about a new project?!
So…spouses…our lives – what are we going to do? Can we do anything?
I’m going to stick my neck out and share the questions I am asking myself. Will you listen? Give me advice?
Do I want the same crap for the rest of my life? Does it feel comfortable and I know how to deal with it, so that makes it okay? Is there enough good here to stay married? If I stay, are there ways to make it better?
Would different [either on my own or with someone else] be better? Is there anyone who would share my life? What facts should I gather to help me decide? Can I break the marital promises? Do I deserve better? What would all this cost?
I feel like if I can decide on a direction, it would be easy to get there, with a few bumps in the transition. And if I knew better days were coming, I could stand this easier.
I know you can’t make any moves now, but when you think about leaving, where are you going? Who is going with you? Maybe making plans can occupy your mind and help you focus on better days ahead? Or is that all just too much to think about now?
I’d be glad to run thru possibilities with you, whether they include me or not. Because I want you to be happier. And maybe as you plan it can give me strength to plan… I don’t know the answers but it sure seems like there has to be a better way. A bit of fact-finding might give us both choices, whether we make them or not.
I am trying to think of various scenarios to see how they make me feel. Do any of these sound good for me or/and you?
A. Stay the same.
Devil I know etc. Try to make changes. What changes? No sex. Very little help with chores. Emotional turmoil.
B. Stay here, separate.
Alone seems scary. Still no sex. No help. Less turmoil.
C. Move near Philip.
New job. Give him space. See him sometimes. Would he want this? That feels better, but moving.. new job.. alone sometimes. Some sex, some help around the house maybe. Travel together? hmmm. Away from my family, friends. Like his friends? Old age?
D. Move. Live with Philip.
Would you? New job. Lots of sex. Partner for house chores, travel, costs. Seems great, but I don’t know whether you’d consider it, and how we’d do together. What about your children and family? My family would welcome you. Be there for old age.
E. Philip moves to live with me or near me.
Would you? Condo? New place?
Close to my family, closer to yours, but you hate the cold. I don’t move, stable job, project continues etc. Could you work up here? Lots of sex, partner around the house, old age together.
Are any of these feasible? Can you “try these on” and tell me what you want, feel so I can plan? Are there other options I am not considering? Other questions you want answered? Facts that would help? For you? For me? Help!
We don’t have to decide today, or tomorrow but I don’t want us to look back and wonder why we didn’t talk, try…
Yikes, that is a lot. Sorry to drop all this on you… but… maybe… just maybe, there is more joy out there for both of us if we can be brave and honest and.. I love you.
Geez… I need a hug. and a kiss… and maybe more!
Fru Fru French
Sunday January 8
3:58pm
Hiya kid. Hand me some bbq, eh? Another pretty day here 43. Had a fru fru French brunch with the family for sis’s birthday. Eh… not my scene!
Special omelette with fall vegetables, carmelized onions and cheeses, with home fries and salad
@ AKA Bistro, Lincoln
Spicy Rock Shrimp Tempura
Poached egg baked into homemade brioche with bacon and salad
Truffle scrambled egg
Brussels Sprouts
A lovely teapot
Poached egg on tart with lobster and lemon basil Hollandaise sauce
4:21pm
Helping mom with email, then off to monthly project meeting and dinner. Have fun football! Think of me on my knees… sucking.
9:21pm
You still watching football? Had a good day? Project meeting rolled along and then had a lovely dinner out with 7 others. Finally home and thinking of you. Wishing… well, you know.
Winter Shorts
Saturday, January 7
12:21pm Phil
Morning! Been out in shorts today. Very nice! Putting away all the holiday stuff this morning. Gym and football this afternoon!
10:45pm
Beautiful day, mid 50’s! Washer repairman scheduled for 10-12…showed up at 12:30. Ugh. Pennies stuck in the motor! Yay! “Only” $100. Ugh. Mom took me out to Thai lunch, then I watched her buy a mattress. Quiet since then… Hope you had a special Saturday. Wish I could get my hands in those shorts…
Tom kar gui – coconut chicken soup
Edamame and chicken satay
FFF – Invitation
Flash Fiction Friday Challenge from Advizor54
Required Phrase: Invitation
Word Limit: 300 words
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A blogger invited me to lunch. I’m not going. No. She’s in town to see another man. It makes sense – I don’t cheat – but… it stings. Lunch is a good offer – not just coffee, something special. But not dinner. No chance in the darkness to…anyway… I get too nervous. But I’ve never seen her face, even after all this time together online. I’ve seen many parts of her body in her blog, heard her voice, read reams of her writing – time to put it all together. Worth an hour.
She was at a back corner table, gave me a quick hug and backed off but not before I could get a big dose of her incredible chest! This could be trouble. We talked easily. She held my hand when the stories got tough. We laughed and laughed, dishing about fellow bloggers. She spoke just as she writes, perhaps a bit bawdier! It was so amazing not to filter… she knows my secret. And I know hers.
Too soon, I walked her to her car, parked around back. She reached for one last hug. I pressed her against the car. She settled into me. Finally she stirred; I had this intense feeling of panic and loss and chemistry. I grabbed her hair. She beamed and I kissed her – deep, fierce… tongues, teeth. She squeezed my ass and snaked the other hand between us to rub my bulging cock. I rolled my hips, twisting her nipple until she trembled and moaned into my mouth.
I stared, panting. “You should let go.”
“You should get in,” she cooed.
“You know I won’t…” I answered. She kissed me on the nose and opened the back door, motioning to the huge back seat.
“I know you will,” she replied. She removed her dress, revealing the “lucky black bra” and stunning cleavage men all over the world drool over on the internet. A couple of steps and I could bury my face in it. She wiggled her eyebrows and winked! Sassy girl! I accepted her invitation.
She was at a back corner table, gave me a quick hug and backed off but not before I could get a big dose of her incredible chest! This could be trouble. We talked easily. She held my hand when the stories got tough. We laughed and laughed, dishing about fellow bloggers. She spoke just as she writes, perhaps a bit bawdier! It was so amazing not to filter… she knows my secret. And I know hers.
Too soon, I walked her to her car, parked around back. She reached for one last hug. I pressed her against the car. She settled into me. Finally she stirred; I had this intense feeling of panic and loss and chemistry. I grabbed her hair. She beamed and I kissed her – deep, fierce… tongues, teeth. She squeezed my ass and snaked the other hand between us to rub my bulging cock. I rolled my hips, twisting her nipple until she trembled and moaned into my mouth.
I stared, panting. “You should let go.”
“You should get in,” she cooed.
“You know I won’t…” I answered. She kissed me on the nose and opened the back door, motioning to the huge back seat.
“I know you will,” she replied. She removed her dress, revealing the “lucky black bra” and stunning cleavage men all over the world drool over on the internet. A couple of steps and I could bury my face in it. She wiggled her eyebrows and winked! Sassy girl! I accepted her invitation.
Geyser
Friday, January 6
7:12am Phil
43 today. Was in the 50s yesterday. Gorgeous day. Lot of meetings today prepping for a big visit next week. Hope it’s been a good week. Have a fabulous day!
3:11pm
45 today… much better! Hope your meetings went well. I’m home catching up on project work and house chores after 3 boring days in the office, and quiet evenings at home looking for stuff to make you cum like a geyser.
4:26pm Phil
LOL
4:26pm
You make me smile.
Sassy Answers: The Maid
Hiya! Dear Readers, it’s time once again for a break from the Philip and Sassy journey as I delve into the email bag and pull out a question from one of you! Today’s selection is a doozy but I will give it my best shot.
Q. What is the secret to harmony in a marriage?
A. I am the wrong person to ask. Although we do have harmony, if not sex! Here are my three tips to an agreeable arrangement:
1) Two bathrooms
I despise someone knocking on the bathroom door asking when I will be done.
Hubby gets squeamish looking at the box of panty liners and creams and powders.
He does bizarre things to a tube of toothpaste and leaves his towels askew!
We are oh so lucky to have our own bathrooms! So I don’t have to deal with any of that!
2) Two computers
We’re both online a lot, so two machines are a must! We don’t have much to hide, but he likes his desktop littered with games and partitions and a wiggling screensaver and who knows what! I keep it simple and my blog secret!
3) A maid
The most important thing is to pay someone else to do the big chores around the house! I know it seems like a luxury, but I found out it is not that expensive to have someone come in once a month to scrub the bathrooms, vacuum the rugs, clean the kitchen and dust! And it gives you a definite point every month to pick things up, get to that pile of papers you’ve meant to sort, put away that pile of laundry or clean out the fridge. I have cut back on a lot of items but I am hanging on to the cleaners! It is amazing the tension that is released when we don’t have to figure out whose turn it is to do all that cleaning, or split it up somehow, or pick on each other for our toilet cleaning skills!
You thought I was going to say “cheating?” HA! Surprise!
Best of luck to all of you in your search for marital bliss!
-Sassy