7:32am Phil

Good morning lovely lady. I hope your day is marvelous.  I’m cooking for the office My turkey pot luck. Looking forward to that.  It’s always fun. Have a great day Sass!

8:18am

Good morning!  Mmm… food!  That sounds so good!  

Have a great Wednesday, kid!

8:20am Phil

How was your phone date last night? I’m a good cook!

8:24am

It was hot!  But not like us…sigh.  But he is not into meeting, just want to talk. Sigh.  I have enough people to talk to – desperate to TOUCH!

I wish you could cook for me. 

8:39am Phil

I just cook the old-fashioned way!  

What makes it hot is that we know each other, have met, have touched, have done most of what we talk about and we have very genuine and real feelings for each other.

9:49am

Oh, I do long for regular old-fashioned turkey!  Hmmm…. you do know how to tantalize me in so many ways!

10:10am

I agree with all you said… you are such a poet these days!  There is more… chemistry, magic, that “click” when it’s “right.”  We were hot from the first moment you wrote – went from polite strangers to explosive so fast!  I don’t expect that, but it would be nice if someone wasn’t… completely odd.   I suppose being on a “married but looking” site makes it likely.  A pal said I have to expect them to be “too” something.  Too old, too young, too short, too bald, too kinky. Ah, well.  I enjoy their attention and stories, and won’t expect much more.  It falls into the “better than nothing” pile.  Maybe I will get lucky!

12:21pm Phil

Ah well.  We were hot way back when and that just never really changed.  I was never married but looking.  Not my style.  The Beach Gal just kind of happened.  Neither of us was looking for anything. I always knew I did not have a very passionate marriage. When you hold off on sex until it’s less unbearable to do it than to listen to the bitching, you got a problem.  I do know there are a lot of strange people out there, not particularly nice people and complete douche bags. I think I’m pretty normal.   I had the good fortune of meeting someone just because we were neighbors who just rocked my world.  Pretty cool.  Just be you Sass.  That should be good enough!

2:59pm

It is rather stunning how our chemistry keeps on boiling!  I so wish Hubby wanted me… I’d be a faithful married lady.  *sigh  All the online stuff is not me.  Thought it might lead me where I belong.  Had to try.  I am giving up.  I’ve stopped searching.  Will answer if they write but feel done with that too.  Will stay with chat, help people there.  Go back to memories and stop thinking about being with anyone new.

3:37pm Phil

Don’t give up girl.  There are lots of great people out there, just not on line.  I think you have so much to offer.  I would have stayed married forever always wondering why I was sad. No one ever called me handsome, no one ever called me darling, no one ever did any of the things I longed for and wanted so badly until.  Once I realized what that was like, I was done.  No one is perfect, we all have issues, it’s a matter of what you can accept and what you cant. 

I need this.  I need some happiness, some tenderness.  I don’t want to shop endlessly.  I want to go Lincoln’s Birthplace. I want to explore history, I want to do a pub crawl of some of the great American pubs, I want to go do the classic things there are to do.  I want to go camping on the beach and fuck my brains out in the surf, I want to go camping in the woods and fuck my brains out by the fire.   You see a theme starting here? I want to tour the great parks out west, ride cross-country on a motorcycle, drive my jeep and have my baby flash the occasional trucker and both of us explode laughing. I want to live in a home that reflects my taste and style, that feels like my place.

Don’t settle sweetie, life is too short for that. Lose some weight, get a sassy haircut, join a gym.  Whatever it takes.  I am well on my way to my high school size.  I am going to be tall and lean and healthy. I’m rock solid and muscular at the moment but I want to be leaner so that’s what I am working towards. You can do any of this. Get off the friggin internet and walk, go have a glass of wine in one of those great little bars.  You will meet much more interesting people. Fuck memories.  Well, in our case, we did and I’m thrilled that we did. I enjoyed every second. It was romantic, it was smoking hot and it’s a highlight of my life. Make new memories.  That’s what I plan to do.  I have wonderful memories and I will cherish them but I want to make new and different memories.  Go for it!

5:42pm Phil

Another paunchy old guy 

[photo of him naked from the hips up]

7:55pm Phil

Enjoy your evening Sass.  🙂

8:01pm

Thanks, skinny kid.

8:19pm Phil

Ha!

8:20pm

I want to put my hands on those hips creases…

8:28pm Phil

Ha ha, I’m getting there

8:29pm

I keep trying to tilt that mirror down just a bit!

8:29pm Phil

I’m such a tease

8:30pm

yummy

I like what I can see!

8:32pm Phil

Glad! Don’t want to be one of those nasty guys

No man titties for me

Heading to the beach after New Years!

8:36pm

I have enough tits for both of us.

Oooh!

8:37pm Phil

You do! Still remember opening that pic at the gym, with the spotter looking on. 

8:38pm

You rascal.

So do you get to see The Beach Gal?

8:38pm Phil

That was funny

Oh yeah, 4 days

8:38pm

OMG!  Awesome!

8:39pm Phil

I can’t even tell you

8:39pm

When did you see her last?

8:39pm Phil

July

8:40pm

Hooray!

8:40pm Phil

I’m so excited

No lobsta. We like Chinese take out, extra spicy

8:42pm

Yum.

8:44pm Phil

Got a great little place around the corner

Good Mexican place on the other corner, great margaritas

House is a mile off the beach

8:48pm

Oh, that sounds so perfect for you.

10:28pm Phil

It is. Got a great garage to turn into a bar, room for a hot tub. Small but perfect and the mortgage is affordable. Nice gardens, room for a nice patio

Feels like home to me. And it’s full of our stuff, things we both loved and bought together

10:47pm

Can your favorite dog go with you?

10:53pm Phil

No, can’t separate them. I love him but he loves my wife and his buddies. They belong together

10:53pm

Oh dear…But he waits for you!  Ah, well…

10:54pm Phil

He will be loved. My wife adores those dogs. Her babies.

10:54pm

Okay.  Sorry to ask that… should know better.

10:54pm Phil

I know, he would be miserable without the others.  I’d never take him from them

10:55pm

The Beach Gal have pups?

10:55pm Phil

Yes, one. He’s gorgeous, my running buddy

10:55pm

nice

10:56pm Phil

He’s a good boy too and I’m his daddy

Sort of

We got him as a pup

10:57pm

cool

10:57pm Phil

Yeah, he’s a horse, he needs a friend

I just throw his big ass around

11:00pm

I bet.  I can see you wrestling around with him.

11:00pm Phil

Looking forward to waking up to the smell of coffee, a loving kiss and good morning baby

11:00pm

So envious

11:03pm Phil

She treats me like a king. I should have married her four years ago instead of fucking around all this time. We would not have happened though and I wouldn’t trade that. I was not ready then, I am now

11:05pm

So glad you are getting a second chance!

11:06pm Phil

I loved making love to you, it was sexy and hot and unbelievably great. I would not trade it for anything. I loved DC and Boston. I had such a good time and we have had cool adventures since

Me too babe

I hope you enjoyed it as much as I did

11:16pm Phil

You gave me this chance. I would not have gotten there without you

Your advise was spot on

11:26pm

That’s what old friends are for. 

11:33pm Phil

We are much more than old friends Sass. Much more.  I have lots of old friends. An evening like we had at Legal does not just happen. Our incredible time in DC, that’s not friends. That’s much much more. It’s why you were able to help. 

Don’t think for a second I don’t know and understand what you did. I’ll be grateful forever and as I always have I’ll love you forever. Our kiss, oh lord. I made a bad call there too.  Don’t ever think I don’t love you. That’s what the waitress picked up on. Just wanted you to know. Nite Sass.

8:31am Phil

Morning Sass.  Hope you have a great day! Had a terrific meal last night at a new place.  Nice. The Beach Gal had to tell dumb ass to leave her alone last night.  He came to get some tools and called her cruel for breaking his heart, professed his love, made some demands and then got thrown out when he started to get nasty.  Glad that’s done.  I did not want him near the house or near The Beach Gal. 

Get these kids out of here at the end of the week and then start working towards ending this job.  Hard to believe it’s over. My wife got to live in the big house and be the Queen Bee. I know she enjoyed that. Time for me to get myself set for the next stage.  A jeep, a beach house, couple dogs, modest stuff and a smile every day.

9:44am

So The Beach Gal changed her mind and is on board with you?

10:30am Phil

She has always been on board.  Just needed to get me to be able to walk away and allow it to happen.  She was getting my attention with a sharp stick. I got the point and it hurt. She loves me but she’s not waiting forever.

10:34am

Can you point to anything you did that was the turning point?  (Storing up ideas for the next heartbroken guy who needs advice)

10:34am Phil

My homely mug

[photo of him in uniform in his office]

Yes, I wrote down how I felt, what I thought, no bullshit, just my inner most thoughts. Talked about why I love her, what I love about her. I called her, talked to her. The flowers helped. Told me she prayed they were from me. The bracelet also helped. Everyone needs to hear it, needs to see it and I let a busy job get in the way. I shan’t make that mistake again.

10:46am Phil

Where you go?  Did you see my Sorry ass team last night?

10:47am

Thanks for the summary!  Very helpful.  And damn, kid, you are looking so HAWT!

I was at the project meeting last night…so intense w/ 2 dozen talented women!

I heard about your team not being in the post-season.  Very sad – they usually make for good opponent.  Sorry, kid.

10:50am Phil

Oh, I’ll bet.  Sounds like fun.  Sass, don’t know what the hell I’m doing.  I just know the girl excites me, loves me, makes me crazy and we enjoy one another and have fun.  That’s been missing from my life for a very long time.

10:52am

I hope having a sweet partner will make all else fall into place.  It may be a tough road but with her to share it, so much better than you’ve had!

Are you staying home for the holidays?

12:07pm Phil

I know it will be a tough road.  There will be family issues and other fallout. There will be a large financial impact.  I give up about half my pension a year.  It’s worth it to me to be met every day with a warm smile and someone who will listen and be interested and will provide the loving and gentle touch that I crave so badly.  I know there are issues.  The Beach Gal, while a gentle and loving soul, can be a handful.  I was very good in the past at limiting what she drinks and how much.  It’s not that she drinks so much but it counteracts her meds and that’s when there are issues.  We enjoy a couple light beers, play some darts, dance a little, no issues.  The Beach Gal works hard, she is independent, has made her own way. Bought a house, pays the bills. She welcomes help but does not need it. She is very family oriented, my wife is not.  We will spend a lot of times with both families.  I really like hers, good people, love her kids.  I think my Mom will love her just because she is so attentive to me.  The Beach Gal is a country girl, does not have my wife’s polish and love of the big event.  That’s fine with me.  I like the country girl and a simpler life.  

Is it so wrong to crave affection?  For six wonderful months, I looked forward to coming home every day, loved cooking meals together, was met with a warm smile, a hug and kiss, my favorite drink. I watched TV with my lady tucked in next to me, her head on my chest.  We listened to music and danced together, took long walks on the beach, bike rides.  It was everything I ever wanted and I let my brother convince me that what I was doing was so wrong, I was destroying my family, it was a sin, I was embarrassing my family. I let him and my kids insert the seed and I made the wrong call.  I should have stayed the path and stayed with The Beach Gal.  That’s where I have wanted to be all this time. I tried to fight that. She had her things; I had mine.  We tried to fight this and move on and for whatever reason, we keep ending up back together, still in love, still like high school kids.  

I know it all sounds foolish.  My more sensible friends say stay where I am, find a girlfriend for the affection I need.  That’s just not me and I don’t want a girlfriend.  I want a partner through the peaks and valleys of life.  One who will hold my hand and encourage me, give me strength and courage and cheer when I win and help me back up when I get knocked down.  That’s The Beach Gal.

Staying here for the holidays.

12:14pm

That sounds beautiful!  It’s what I’ve been hoping for you for ages.  You deserve it.  I will help however I can.

Off to lunch w/ my assistants – trying to get out more

12:16pm Phil

You are something else. <3

going to swim

1:28pm Phil

that’s a good plan!  Enjoy!  

Found a place that does lobsta rolls.  Going to try them out! 

5:06pm

Won’t be as good w/out me. 🙂

I’m off!  Another project starts tonight.  And might have a hot sex phone date…. mmmm.  Have a good evening!

5:10pm Phil

No it won’t be. Ooooh, well have fun girl.

5:12pm

Won’t be the same w/o you!

5:13pm Phil

We do it pretty well for real and on the phone girl.

I’ll never eat lobster the same again.  Every time I see one I think of you and smile.

5:40pm

🙂  That warms my heart.

I am eating Thai soup…and remembering kissing you in the shadows of Natl Harbor!

5:49pm Phil

I loved that place! That was fun!

The night we went to Legal Seafood was such a romantic evening. What fun! I hope you enjoyed the pre dinner activities cause I sure did

5:53pm

You said, “There is no better sight than a beautiful woman sucking my cock.”

5:57pm Phil

Absolutely! 🙂

No exaggeration there

6:04pm

I don’t usually feel beautiful but I believed you that night

6:07pm Phil

You were beautiful at dinner as well. Beauty comes from all of a person, inside and out and you have both.

7:05am Phil

Good Morning, Have a great week!  Be up all night Thursday partying with co-workers before everyone heads out.  Busy week for us but it’s nice to see them going home all excited.  Hope it’s a wonderful Monday for ya!

8:10am

Good morning!  Off to work – free massages today!  Then a project meeting tonight.  Whee!

8:10am Phil

Have a great day, girl!